Shortlived Romance

She was in a different school

But her attraction still made me drool
But nothing was possible
To her my feelings weren't even audible

She had a muscular boyfriend
Whom I didn't want to offend
Coz he'd give me a sprain
If he took a look in my brain

But she was in my tuition class
Maths, for this reason I could never pass
I couldn't stop looking at her
Her surroundings were a mere blur

So I decided to take a chance
Try to woo her with my amateur romance
I got her a lot of chocolates the other day
I had to get her, in any way

But at the door my bad luck rang

The chocolates were seen by the entire girl gang
They devoured all the chocolate
I looked at the floor contemplating my fate

So I spent all my pocket money
And still didn't taste any honey
This was my embarrassing affair
I pray to god these are rare

The Embarrasing Situation

the embarrassing situation

i was chatting with dis pretty gal
Though she was just a pal
i was flirting with her
she knew i was kidding with her

I was also chattin with my girlfriend
Our lovley chat was supposed to end 
I wanted to make it romantic
B'coz I am a poem fanatic

I typed 'My world lies in your eyes,
There is where my soul lies'
But then there was a little error
My heart was filled with terror

I had written it to the other girl
My mind had began to swirl
The girl asked weather I was drunk
At the moment my heart totally sunk

i felt i had done unforgiveable crimes
I typed in'sorry' a hundred times
But the girl was very merciful
she forgave me and said my poems were beautiful!!!

Closure

Closure can do two things, give you satisfaction or be a bitch if you don't get it. I still haven't got my closure for something that happened ages ago. It hurts me when its brought up, puts me in a turmoil. What I have learned its best to let it go. Closure is not something you achieve and it is totally useless to pursue it. It would just hurt you more.
Its just best you let it go. I'm trying it step by step and it is working. It will help you too.

Yet another rant!!!

Okay, so I have a lot of self proclaimed talent right. Like I can sing, act, write stuff and much more. I have crazy dreams  like winning an Oscar, signing a book contract with Harpercollins, act in a Christopher Nolan movie (If he plans to make one of those Batman movies again, off course) and much more. I am also in the process of drafting my first manuscript, which I havent touched in over two years. I also have a youtube channel that I do not update regularly. All I do is complain about it on this blog. I am not even doing justice to the name Sweet Chaos. I started this blog in order to keep my work motivated but I am not doing that also.
I guess the least I can do is write something everyday. I have to get off my ass soon  'cos time ain't waiting for no one. I am sorry to bore you'll with my rants. This is possibly the last one :-p

Unnecessary Euphoria

I am no psychologist or a life coach, but I have had my share of insecurities and stress and I have devised ways to deal with them. I am not a very adventurous person but last night I did something really amazing. I wouldn't go into details. So, I stay in a hostel, and of course you are not supposed to go to the terrace but I did go with a friend. I was scared as shit. My friend put on some music and simply asked me to look up at the sky. It was amazing, finite number of stars sparkled in the sky, playing hide-and-seek time to time hiding behind clouds. Then all thoughts simply began to subdue, kind of dissolved in the vast sky. The jazz music simply matched the sound of water leaking from a tank behind, which was irritating me before. I believe this is it. Those books do not lie when they say you should appreciate the little things in life. I know I might sound like some monk, but you know, life kinda gets easier when you try to draw the bigger picture of life part by part.   

A letter for her...

Oh Love,
               why don't you understand? Those flowers are not a sign of a  caring friend. I intend to be a lot more. Why are you worried that we would lose what we have? I'm asking for a step forward not backward. I can no longer stand without holding your pretty face in my hands and stare into those sparkling eyes of yours. I no longer can resist returning those little pecks you give to me with those softest lips of yours. I can no longer pretend that I do not smell your beautiful hair when we hug..I can't. Nevertheless, I will continue doing these things because I know you are happy where you are, hoping that you will reach the same place as me. I desperately await that moment. Desperately.
                                                                                                                                  Loverboy